Five years after Johnny’s disappearance, Laeticia Hallyday still intensely feels the absence of the man who was her husband for more than 20 years. “There are days in my life when I wish I could turn back time and every June 15th is one of them“, she wrote on her Instagram account. Her message illustrates the difficulty of continuing to live after the loss of a loved one, a feeling that many can understand, but few are able to express with such sincerity .
In his message, she speaks of grief as a constant companion, describing how it settled into every fiber of his being. This continued presence of pain reflects a mourning that is never truly complete. For Laeticia,
every day without Johnny is a challengean ordeal that she faces with courage.
“If I could…”
Laeticia evokes with nostalgia the moments spent with Johnny, which she would like to be able to relive. “If I could, I would give him all the kisses in the world“, she confides. These memories, although painful, are also a source of comfort. They allow her to maintain a connection with Johnnyeven if this link is tinged with sadness.
For Laeticia, celebrating Johnny’s birthday is a way to preserve his memory and continue to keep him alive through the memories and the love she still has for him. She shares these intimate moments with her followers, thus creating a community of support and sharing around Johnny’s memory.
“Living without him”
“I have learned since his departure to live differently, to live without him“, she confides. This adaptation to a new life, without Johnny, is a long and painful process. Laeticia speaks of this transformation as a necessity, a painful but inevitable learning experience.
She describes grief as an integral part of her daily life, a pain that never really goes away, but with which she must learn to coexist. This daily struggle against grief is a reality for many who have lost a loved one, and Laeticia puts words to this ordeal.
“I learned that life is fragile and that we are not invincible”
Laeticia also shared lessons she learned from this experience. “I learned that life is fragile and that we are not invincible“, she writes. This awareness of the fragility of life is a lesson that many can understand, but that few ultimately dare to face. She thus encourages her followers to “live and love fully“, valuable advice coming from someone who has experienced such a devastating loss.
For Laeticia, Johnny remains present in every aspect of her life. “I’ll tell him ‘I love you’ a million more times“, she writes. This unwavering love is a testimony to the depth of their relationship, a relationship that transcends death. Even after his disappearance, Johnny continues to live through Laeticia’s love. This love, although painful, is also a source of strength and resilience for her. It is the common thread that allows him to navigate through the troubled waters of grief and find meaning in his new reality..
