Andrey Rublev, on the eve of his debut at the Australian Open against the nugget Joao Fonseca, spoke with rare sincerity in an interview with Guardian.
The Russian player spoke of the torments that have inhabited him in recent months, notably a deep depression which reached its peak after his elimination in the first round of Wimbledon last July.
“It was the worst moment I have ever experienced. It wasn’t about tennis. It was a question of myself, after that moment, I no longer saw any reason to live. I wonder why? This may sound a bit dramatic, but the thoughts in my head were killing me, creating a lot of anxiety, and I couldn’t take it anymore. I was starting to feel a little bipolar. Since Wimbledon, things have changed. I was taking antidepressants and it didn’t help at all. At the end I said, ‘I don’t want to take anything anymore.’ I stopped all the tablets and Marat Safin helped me a lot in our conversations. He made me aware of a lot of things and I started working with a psychologist. I’m learning a lot about myself and even though I don’t feel in a good mood or in the state of happiness I’d like to be in, I no longer feel this crazy anxiety and stress of not knowing what to do next. my life. »
