This November 25, 2024, Cali was the guest of Jordan de Luxe, on C8. And the singer confided in his dark moods. He who confessed to fond of alcohol, also assured that he was regularly depressed and that he had even attempted suicide.
In fact, the singer of “She told me” first explained: “I think I'm a drunkbut a drunkard compared to the alcoholic is different. A drunkard loves drunkenness. Drunk in the sense that I seek drunkenness all the time“.
Alcohol and depression
Cali looks for moments of fullness in summer, in small villages, with a few drinks and music, in the square, but assures that he doesn't go further than that…
However, he recognizes that he does have some areas of depression. The star of the song assures that “depression appears regularly” in his life. And to add: “It's something that I manage to regulate when I'm with my friends. But often, when I'm alone, I can caress the darkness for ten minutes really. The desire to leave, and ten minutes later find the sun. When it's longer, it becomes a bit…”
He explains, for example, that the confinements during the Covid-19 crisis in 2020 made him “a lot of trouble“. He did not understand that many find this moment “wonderful”.
For years, Cali has “a friend who helps him, even if only by talking with him” he assures. He doesn't take medication, but he admits that he is often told that he writes depressive songs. And Cali laughed: “I don't think you have to be depressed to write them, but I like having a stone in my shoe. I like the idea of flagellating myself too, it allows me to absolutely live what I sing.”
Cali sometimes went a little further than depression, and even says he attempted suicide. The singer, however, assures: “I tried, but I did everything I could to fail! I say it with a smile because I was in 4th grade, it was a high school party, and I was madly in love with a girl. And she left with another boy.”
Cali on his suicide attempt
He then remembers: “I went and hid behind the gym, and I broke a beer bottle, and I tried to open my veins, but on the wrong side on purposes. I was held back, but I did everything to be held back.”
In the end, if Cali says all this, it is because he is willing to put all his flaws at the service of his art. And to conclude: “we can't sing marshmallow every night. When it goes very, very far away, we take pleasure in finding this moment againeven if it is very painful…”
With tears in his eyes, the artist reveals: “because when we open our eyes, there is always someone with loving eyes looking at you”.
